With each passing day, my attitude moves more and more to one of complete and total apathy. Ya know? Like balls to the wall, caution to the wind, I don’t even care anymore lemme just do whatever the fuck and stop thinking about how I’m going to do it. Maybe if I completely let go then it’ll be easier. Why should I care? Why should I worry? Why should I consider the details?
Because I do, I guess. I just wish I didn’t. You can’t change your nature. Can you? I don’t know you can cut down trees and plant a garden, but I guess that’s just your environment. You know what I’m saying? Do you get it? I don’t care. Whatever.
Is it ever going to stop raining in California? I have no heat in my house. My fingertips are frozen.But I don’t have AC either, so I don’t necessarily want it to get hot. I don’t care.
I have things to do. Somebody just got in an accident outside my house. I’m not even gonna go look cause I don’t care.
Ok maybe I should keep caring a little.
-J.P.